*trigger and content warning* please be advised this poem contains discussion of assault, trauma, triggers. please read at your own discretion.

‘a week far too big for a young girl’

today is the day.

it is the morning of the criminal trial.

everything is finally happening, the week that gives me closure.

i wanted it to come by so quickly,

so everything can be over and i can begin to live.

the burden that has been hanging over my head for far too long.

and now here it is…

968 days since the assault.

769 days since i went to the police station.

2 statements, and many appointments later – but we’re here.

i am thankful i am first witness, so i can get it over and done with.

i am thankful i have support from 2 amazing friends.

i am nervous, but i will stand strong.

not make any sort of eye contact with him at all.

i will speak truthfully, assertively, raw and honest.

i am healing younger me that was too terrified to speak up.

i am helping me transition into the next healing stage i need.

i am finally going to be free of him.

i may be able to forgive you somewhat in my heart,

but i will never be able to forget.

21/11/2024

-MAO

sorry i haven’t been active on mao’s website the past 2 weeks.

i had this court trial and needed a break, then a long awaited camping trip.

but i am back, more inspired than ever and ready to continue my life’s purpose.